J记 VS B记

我应该是有怨念的。所谓人比人吓死人。
我知道作为intern本来就该做那些没人想做的事，只是在无穷尽的payment中何时才是个头。
Proofread是不错，但是为什么proof之后，revised的版本从来没人给我看过。
开会不带我，出去玩不带我，这也算了，我写的软文翻的english，出来后居然都不给我看最终版本。

B记是这样的，每天mail不断，只要老板有的基本上都会知我一声，即使跟我没啥关系，但怎么说我也是这个部门的人对吧。
J记是这样的，就算你是这个部门的人，人和人之间还是有分工。是你的事就会mail给你，不关你的事，就算是我写的东西，最后还是看不到final edition。信箱里面可怜巴巴的一封mail，不知道会不会有一天，连一封mail都没有。

他们说没事做有钱拿真好。但是每天乘那么久的车就为了到这个号称浦西最高楼的地方孵空调，我这不是自作孽么。

好吧，我承认我是自作孽。各么事已至此，也只能不可活了。所以说碰到一个好老板真是前世修来的缘份，但是人往往贱，直到失去才懂得珍惜。我想我是注定要做proofread小天后了

Thank You

听到那两个字的时候，我有些不知所措。
说什么都好，Good Bye, Good Luck, Thank you...
只是竟然是保重。

我知道不过一句玩笑话，
但我真的有在洗澡的时候好好思索。
这实在不是我擅长的部分。
那些thank you for supporting or helping or teaching，心灵相通，何须言语。
我真正想说的，是一句thank you for those emotional words.
我真的有被感动到。
只是在那样的气氛下，
我不知该如何诉说。

再见面，会不会在大洋彼岸。
Everyone should has a bright future.
那一张张脸孔，一张张绽放笑容的脸孔。
还有你跟我说的那些年少轻狂，和独闯天涯。

最后一次乘那辆车的时候，
我终于拍下了一路的湛蓝天。

InSite

Finally, InSite is published.

从三月到六月，整四个月。如果做报纸做杂志也像这样，老早就死了N次了。

ANYWAY,回家的时候看到班车上的人在看，其实还是蛮开心的。虽然我可能又要拒掉一个做media的PR。

想来排斥做记者，可能工作状态或者受政治限制都只是借口，更关键的，其实是根本上排斥以文字谋生。这应该是个很私人的东西。

Finally, I got the phone from Weber Sandwick. Compared with Ruderfinn, prefer this one.

我们 终于 都会survive过去的

3 visits 1 day
0800-1130 1000-1230 1130-1530
不断有状况发生，第一拨拖时间，第二拨提早来，导致第三拨也不能遵守schedule
临时改变计划
但是 如果 B计划无法执行该如何
打电话打到手抽筋
其实这不就是一个apprentice任务
好在都很合作
最重要的人出现在最重要的场合
其余的 该放手的放手
终于 三拨人陆陆续续地走了
终于 我们都会survive过去的

outing or not

在考虑要不要去outing的时候，有一度脑子里闪过不要去的念头。然后老板教了我一个此生都应该难忘的道理。

这个圈子很小，跟大家一起出游，联络联络感情，说不定将来哪天就需要找谁谁帮忙也好说话。
是公司的福利干嘛不去。
给老板一点面子嘛。

不过是一个简简单单的outing，我想的是去的地方不太好玩，而且相熟的几个都因为有事不去，那到不如待在家里休息休息。
人家想得却是，这是一个好机会跟老板建立更进一步的感情，对将来说不定有利。

my god! 这世上的人也太有心机了吧。我不过是小白痴一个。嫩着呢！

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13:30-18:00

整整个4个半小时。

culture clash时时刻刻存在着，尽管这是一个所谓的multinational corporation with so many professional biz man and women.
一个问题抛出，整个room鸦雀无声。好像那时候上外教的课，所有的学生都低着头各怀鬼胎，最好老师表叫到他，只剩不领风情的外教一个人在上面眼巴巴地看着下面。其实Quiet by nature的人未必have to be。只是这个张扬的时代，为什么好像quiet就是weak，aggressive就是strong。He knows everything just don't comment.

然后的exercise，更像是group interview。再次感叹一下，my poor English。好像我常常会连着把一个词说好几遍。I'm nervous? Nope. But why can't I help stuttering? Maybe I am nervous. She is so nice but I still resist to meeting her until I was 逼上梁山 on that day. It's ok for simple communication, but 何时才能修炼到那种级别啊。望洋兴叹。

Safety Exhibition

So it's actually still in process. But yesterday was absolutely boring. Damn boring.

So that's exhibition. Once everything is prepared, what you should do and what you can do is nothing.

Nothing, only sit together and chat. And watch those we have watched for several weeks. And wait people just wandering.

So boring day, so boring exhibition, even no physical labor.

让我们华丽地迎接Crisis的到来吧

Case #1

In late April, our contractor, Shanghai Baoye Construction Corporation, drove an overloaded truck onto the road at Shanghai Chemical Industry Park and decapitated two motorcycle riders when surpassing them. The families of the riders protested to the Fengxian district government and SCIP Police Bureau was asked to investigate the accidents. Before the accident, the driver and the overloaded truck had already received warnings from the local police and were asked to register to gain the right of way; however the ignorance of the regulation and road safety finally led to the tragedy. The driver is under official investigation now.

Solution: Prepare Q&A for the visit of SCIP Police Bureau Chief

Case #2

Cangzhou Dahua TDI Explosion

In brief:

- At 13:40 pm on May 11, 2007 an explosion occurred at TDI plant of Cangzhou Big Chemical Group in Hebei province.

- The explosion happened at the nitration workshop and then caused the toluene storage to catch fire.
- So far there are 9 fatalities, 9 in serious condition and 96 people wounded.
- The police have blocked the area and around 2,000 people in the nearby area have been evacuated at 15:00 PM.
- The Cangzhou government has established a crisis management center to handle the accident.
- So far no harmful leakage has been detected in the atmosphere.
- The workshop's power and water supplies were cut off immediately after the accident.
- The fire was extinguished at 16:30.
- The cause of the accident is unknown at this stage.

Solution: Media Analysis (with detailed report)

Noteworthy is that the local government has held a pressconference, in which a HES manager apparently gave contradictory information related to whether the gas leakage had happened before, sparking media and public suspicion on the company's safety records.

There are now 43 media reports in the print media, and another 53 online reports. Focus in the reporting still appears factual, though doubts are arising in the media reports about:
- Is the distance between the plant and the residential area is too short
- Why were the FF facilities not working during the accident
- Whether there was a gas leakage afterwards or not
- Whether a gas leakage or any other accidents had happened before

We have also reviewed public blogs on the internet, and there are several comments on the Hebei local BBS which claimed to have witnessed or know of the accidents have said that the government is lying. The real number of fatalities and injuries are much more than the official number. Some local residents also said the government is irresponsible to have allowed a company to have built a dangerous chemical plant near them for economic profits.

We will continue to monitor for how this will impact media reporting / government public positioning.

We have thus far not received any query from the media relating to our TDI investment.

More key points of the media report
- Cangzhou Dahua counts for around 12% of the total TDI production capacity in China, thus the accident results in a further rising pressure to the TDI price.
- It is very unclear when the Cangzhou site can go back to production.
- The local area and residents were shocked during the accident. And the fear of the nearby chemical plant has been around for a long time.
- The evacuation was a mess. The villagers did not get clear instruction and support during the process.
- The hospital is full of the injured requiring medical help.
- The explosion caused terrible damage to the nearby villages and the residents are still waiting for the help from government.
- Foreign media coverage. More foreign media and websites have picked up the story. However, the content is more factual and is just a copy of the Chinese media reports. Further comments or analysis are rarely made.

Case #3

MDI spillage on the road in the evening of May 21. Two HSEQ colleagues are onroute to the truck location, and work to contain and clean up the spillage could be completed by tomorrow morning.

A local journalist was onsite requesting information on the spillage. The journalist was with a film crew.

The cleanup of the affected area, and the safe transfer of remaining crude MDI to a second isotainer, were completed successfully by early morning of May 22.

Solution: Make standby statement for external media (updated)

speak with the journalist directly, leveraging on key points from the standby statement

emphasise that the situation is under control, with prompt action of local firefighters / police and expert advice of our staff

monitor closely in case there is any additional or negative reporting in the media on this matter, or if it is covered more extensively in the Chinese press / blog

飘

开会的时候心绪乱飘。

只是突然想到从职业发展的角度来讲，如果没人带我，我会死得很难看。而且一时半会找个人肯来这里的，还真不容易。如果有人带我，Why我一定要选择Bayer?

About eating and outing

今天team meeting，收获如下：

老板请客new age新素代，但是觉得不是最好吃，好多都好辣，最后结帐5个人竟然450-。。。

June 8-June 10 Team outing 武义
从来没听说过的地方，不知道如何

Future

频繁地被问到plan about future. 大方向自然心知肚明，只是那个大方向下面毕竟也免不了更多的小选择。

So she said she is 90% sure to make me obtain the job offer, IF I want.

If I want. But do I want?

我甚至不确定我是不是要以此为我的终生职业，就算是，这会不会是个好的starting point？

致命伤始终存在，当那个叫做Guido的人说你应该考虑搬家的时候，我就开始绝望。

allowance for traffic and lunch当然是advantage，只是这样的advantage够不够advantageous值得让我舍弃一切。

Thinking about it for one month...

计划永远赶不上变化

刚上班那会儿，我还是个挺积极要求上进的好孩子。每天就想着多做点儿事，多学点儿东西。生怕老板把我晾一边儿。

现在，最好事情越少越好，尤其是那些体力活，和吃力不讨好的求人事。虽然每天无所事事有点闲得发慌，但总好过每天从上班开始到下班结束都在不停地打电话请人帮忙。

那些竞升机制果然有其存在的意义。上班图个啥，不就图那丁点儿钱。什么职业发展，全部都是虚有其表的废话。

再说那个死人的TOWNHALL MEETING。我收回之前说的话，原来这世界上作的人多了去了。不仅中国人，不仅政府部门，不仅国有企业。一会儿7号一会儿8号一会儿又变7号。有病吧，变来变去好玩啊。我们做小喽啰的只好在底下被搞得晕头转向，找不着北。而仔细想想，做的也不过就是些set up的杂事体力活，高级的事比如准备presentation这种哪轮得到我们插手。哎，一样是preparation，人家可以在家里舒舒服服做，我却连好好一个长假都不安生，鬼知道4号要不要上班，6号要不要加班。做事情一点都不考虑别人的感受，整一无大脑无逻辑。还做什么President。

不过我也就奇了怪了，当初annual party的时候加班好像没这么不乐意啊，还一加就是周六周日连加两天。这次应该是working day了怎么反倒还心不甘情不愿的。果然是喜新厌旧的本性改不了了。

I'm not super; and I don't wanna be super either.

I'm not super; and I don't wanna be super either.

No one is super in this world. Even if there is someone, he will never be happy.

I just wanna be ordinary, seeing someone smile to me and boasting my smile to everybody.

Don't call me super. Never!

Team Meeting

So that's it.

Finally the phone call was ringing although ten minutes later.
Finally I spoke what I wanna say although more than one page has been prepared.
Finally I could blog in my office although click directly still no use.
Finally I could msn others although the offical one still in block.
Finally I will be independent for one week although anything new could happen.
Finally I got it.

PS. Chinese people and Singaporean's English is definitely better than German's.

变

我不是伤感，也不是舍不得什么。只是突如其来的变动让我措手不及。有些人说来就来，有些人说走就走，或者应该是说都没说就走。我防不胜防。

我们也许都会变成这样的人，练就铜臂铁腿，金刚不坏之身，看他们来了又去，依旧走自己的路。

只是这一次，身边的人突然就这样凭空消失，总会觉得少了一些什么。

这世界变太快，我们不过匆匆过客。

It's over. LOI

又一个结束了。

EVENT做多了，觉得其实也就这样。PASSION开始耗尽，SO IS INTEREST。
THEN WHAT IS MORE INTERESTING? HOW ABOUT MORE TECHNICAL?

如果有一天，每天只是一成不变地过，刷牙洗脸吃早餐，出门挤车上班，下班洗澡睡觉。
我们会不会BORING到忘记自己曾经年轻过，曾经热爱过，曾经幻想过。

如果有一天，年华开始逝去，平淡无其的生活，我们是否能够甘于寂寞？
CHANGABLE DAY MAKES ME TIRED WHILE THE SAME LIFE IS BORING.

任何时候，都要时刻保持冷静

开始发觉，有些人喜欢瞎指挥。

细节是要注意的，的确。但是脑子一热想出个什么就让别人去做，这就有点不厚道了。

而且事先的任务分配都已经很清楚了。干嘛该人家做的事你去插一脚，不该人家做的事你又叫人家来做。脑子始终处于不清醒状态。

PS.在经历了三次大动作之后LOI BETWEEN BAYER MATERIALSCIENCE AG AND SINOPEC应该是可以敲定了。跟中国人合作真累啊。（此处单指国企及政府部门）

朝令夕改

算是领教了中国人的朝令夕改。

如果说女人善变，那中国女人呢。我不知道。反正政府部门的一定善变。

一周零三天前，通知有签约仪式；一周前，改时间，因为老大要赶飞机。他们说这是正常现象，只要在中国。好吧。国企尚且这样，何况政府。如果将来有一天，我要去做GOV RELATION，我想我会郁闷至死的。

Lesson

这其实应该不算是我的Lesson，因为本来也不是我的Responsibility。只是突然发现做PR太需要Detail-Priority了。不管是做什么，Event，Site Visit，最大的困难始终是随时都会有突发状况的发生。

之前觉得有时候Jo太过保守，考虑太过周全。事实证明她是对的。Shoe size的事情就是明证。老板毕竟是老板，他永远不可能想到所有的细节，可是一旦在细节上出了错，到最后倒霉的还是自己。So, the lesson is that as a PR, you can never depend everything on your boss and make his words everything. Every time, considering thoroughly is a must. And to be conservative is not a bad thing.

自己在面试的时候说自己是Completist，现在开始怀疑了。或者我只是对于某些部分比较苛刻，而并非全部。但是要做一个好的PR，那却确是需要的。Completist是一种生活态度。

庸人自扰

那些他们不愿意去做或者忘记去做的事，还有INTERN。那么多人要去催。那么多人要去CALL。

真的是因为有那么多的人搞不清状况，分不清职责？还是有人故意要为难？或者，只是因为每个人的立场不同，谁都想少一些事。

所谓的复杂人事关系，是庸人自扰吗？

但愿。

我所能做的，只是SAY YES，然后DO IT。然后走人。

我所需要做的，就是考虑到所有老板考虑到或者未考虑到的细节。MAKE EVERYTHING PERFECT。比如鞋子尺码，比如车子后备。

INHOUSE VS AGENCY。复杂人际关系VS简单共事。偶尔辛苦VS时常加班。

WHAT TO CHOOSE?